Insomnia

Tick tock tick tock;

The monotonous clock does its work;

For ages it seems.

But still it hasn't tired.

Unlike me!

For twelve rainy days,

My eyes haven't seen darkness.

The darkness, I really crave for,

Because it holds the key for my survival;

I haven't dreamt for a long time,

How i miss them??

Even the bad ones!!

I crave for dreams in which beasts devour me,

Yet all i see is the fan swinging.

Dont't they sleep....

don't they seem frustrated?

And i envy them so much,

One...........two............three............

the clock runs away.

And i begin to slip into a cave;

But there is a difference,

The cave isn't dark,

Its full of light

And i suddenly realize what is happening to me.

Its insomnia!!!

For me there is neither total darkness nor total light.

I am in between;

Like a glass half filled;

Like a river on a downward hill

I feel, i am living two lives;

For me night never prevails

The sun is always up there for me,

And i can't make it disappear

But the worst part,

Is the cynical feeling of being in every place.

Every road,every house is familiar to me

I seem to be in that place earlier before

Yet i cant remember when??

A deja Vu!!!

I again try like the spider.

Am i succeeding?

Tick tock tick tock...........

Here it goes again.

One..........two..........three.........

And i keep staring.................................................................